Still Standing!

I haven't posted in some time and to be quite honest, I really didn't have much to say. 

• Some days are better than others.
• It still hurts to see pictures and video of Tyler.
• I still get mad/upset/bitter when I see healthy babies with their mommas.
• I want so badly to hold a baby, but just don't think I stomach it.
• I'm working out 5-6 days a week to get down to a weight that is acceptable to start IVF.
• I'm not to that acceptable weight just yet.

• I still want to have another baby......

I had the privilege of meeting another "Standing Mom" who lost her 12-week son, Ethan, three years ago.  This amazing mother is my soon-to-be pastor's wife and I'm so excited to be able to share our stories and laugh together and to cry together.  She is excited to walk through this next phase of our life holding my hand and keeping me sane as I worry about every little pain, cramp and twinge that I feel during my next pregnancy.  (I say my NEXT pregnancy because I will get pregnant again!!)


I had plateaued and not lost any additional weight for about two weeks.  I would gain and lose the same pound, it seemed.  I was really starting to get frustrated and really started questioning whether or not this would all be worth it.  I would read blogs and weight-loss sites trying to gather a game plan to help with the last, stubborn 12 pounds.  I was working my tale off and nothing really to show for it.  Then, this morning, the scale showed a four-pound loss. 


HALLELUJAH!!  (angels singing in the background)


I feel like I can continue on this journey.  I've still got 8 pounds to lose by April 24, but I feel confident that I can get those off plus any extra that may want to linger. 


My husband has been using a weight-loss product and lost nine pounds in seven days.  It's not a competition, but it sure is nice to get one ahead of him.  :)

Tee hee, tee hee....


But with a five-month angleversary under my belt, the scale finally moving in the right direction and feeling like we're getting somewhere--I'm very optimistic about the future.  I'm ready to get things going, but I also know that April 24 is not that far away.  (42 days to be exact!)  I'll make it and hopefully be down another 12 pounds.....


Until then....


Kathy