How's it going?

This is week number two of early morning visits to the gym!!  I'm happy to report that I have been there most mornings and have already dropped six pounds!!  Six pounds down, 24 more to go.

I've got a friend who has been meeting me at the gym.  We both do our own thing, but it helps with accountability of it all.  You start asking questions when you don't see someone and maybe apply some good peer pressure to get them back.  It helps me knowing that someone is there "waiting" on me.  I feel another responsibility.

I'm excited about the weight loss.  I'm excited about the exercise.  I'm also very excited that third period after giving birth was normal.  That's two in a row that have been normal.  Getting back on a regular cycle is just another step toward meeting our goal of a viable pregnancy.  One more step in the right direction.

The craziest thing that has happened is that I have volunteered to share my story at a women's function at church.  I just kept feeling a pull to share what we've been through and open up about my anger, my hurt, my loss.  Many, and I mean MANY, know the story about losing Tyler, but most don't have a clue about the greater loss we felt that day of maybe never having another child.  That's just not something you openly share with people, but God has really impressed upon me that I do need to share.  Share about our feelings, share about the heart condition Tyler had, share about getting better and not bitter, share about being thankful and content with what you have...  All of the above.  I'm nervous, scared.  Worried about the fingers of judgement that may be pointed at us.  In-vitro fertilization is a very new topic for the church to discuss.  It's so "science-y" that a lot of people don't want or don't like to think about that with regard to creation and the way God designed things.  It will be very new territory for some of our ladies to venture into, but I'm happy to share this story with them.  I want them to take the journey with us.  Celebrate with us, grieve with us, hope with us, pray with us....